Well, here goes. This is my 2nd blog. The first, being filled with much deeper thoughts than herein will entail. *smiles* This, well, let's just say, aside from a mother's heart...I am honestly not sure why anyone would enjoy reading about my life. BUT I have wanted to journal day to day for a LONG time, and I hope this will challenge me to go for it. Okay...so that is the sugarcoated reason I am facing this. Frankly, I struggle with the whole vulnerability thing. Yeah....! I don't trust easily and I REALLY don't bare my heart well. A dear friend once told me that I have this tendancy to be "open" about my struggles only AFTER I have found the victory or dealt with it in Christ. And while I may see my struggles and weaknesses as a means to shout glory to God who alone gets me through......well, it doesn't cost my pride much after the fact, ya know??? It's far easier to say "i USED to struggle with ---" rather than, hey, I am totally failing at THIS....as in now. yuppers....humbleness is not my strong suit. haha. BUT, I also know that the body of Christ is called to encourage one another DAILY and to bear one another's weaknesses. How the heck can we do that if we only tell our needs AFTER they are past? yeah, somehow I don't think that can work. But ohhhh how our pride likes it. hm! funny,that! isn't our pride part of our flesh? You know, the part that is crucified with Christ???
So, needless to say, I want to write daily, or as best as I can, and invite ya'll, my brothers & sister in Christ, to join me on this journey. BUT I ask something of you, dear reader. Please, PLEASE read this for a purpose, to take action!!! Either read it for some conversation topics between you and our Savior at the throne of grace ~ PRAY for me, for those who come in and out of my life! AND/or challenge me and encourage me. Don't let me settle. Don't let me waver. We are called to a high calling. While my flesh taunts and tempts me and tries deluding me into earthly "glories", there is only ONE glory I long to pour life and breath out for - Jesus Christ! If I live for less, please please TELL ME! Point me to HIM! And challenge me to do likewise! I firmly believe that the body of Christ has a RESPONSIBILITY to speak truth to each other, to exhort each other (and exhortation is NOT a happy feely thing - it is meant to remind of truths and promises and our calling, it is meant to push us deeper into Christ, to remind us that we are NOT of this world, to keep each other from settling or living for this world, the enemy of our GOD!!!!). So, read my stories day to day and then pray or challenge or both. If you are on this page, then I am certain our God has brought you here and He has a purpose and a calling for you, dear friend, each moment of each day.
Also, I am praying each time I type that you will be encouraged by the fact that you are NOT alone in weakness and struggles. Take heart that OUR GOD is bigger than our failures, He is bigger than our feebleness. If He can work through little ole wretched ME, than KNOW that He can work through you!!!! OH! If Christians would strip off the weight of superficiality, for it is certainly one of the enemies greatest tools. No, it is here, in our weakness, that His strength is perfected. And it is in our vulnerability that we can be challenged and deepened. Yeah, it totally freaks me out, but I pray it will push me further into the heart and truths of my God, as well as encourage you, friend, to know you do not walk this road alone!!!!!!
much love :)
heather